Showing posts with label love. Show all posts
Showing posts with label love. Show all posts

Saturday, 31 December 2011

My Own Story (The Last Poem)

So, this is it, the last poem of 2011. I'm sat here listening to The Kooks - Naive, which for some reason feels appropriate. As I said a month or so ago, I will be posting a proper conclusion on January 1st - without a poem - this is because I wrote an introduction saying what I would do this year, also without a poem. I thought this made it seem more full circle. 
And for those who think I've cheated and missed out on two poems, I posted two extra in November, just to be thorough.

I would love to be able to tell you that I have been thinking about this poem for months and have perfected what you're about to read. But I haven't. In fact, I'm still not too sure what I'm going to write about. 



Sad as it may make me appear, I actually feel a bit emotional that this is the last one. I'll stop blabbing on, you get my emotional mush of  a summary tomorrow. Something for you to look forward to in 2012 - the year the world ends apparently. But I will say here, that thank you to any one who has read this. Anyone who has looked at this blog in the past year, even if you're not reading now and will never know how grateful I am that people took some time to read this.

Here we go, the last poem. It will look as if I just started typing whatever, technology can't show my thinking process but rest assured, I'm going to think and come back to it. This is important. 



Picture is not meant to be arrogant, I just thought since it was poem about me, this was probably the best image to have. 


It could be said there is a poem 
for pretty much everything
from a sonnet for your heart to sing
to a limerick of Ireland 
and a man called Jim. 


I have tried all this year to write 
with maybe not all the words I know
they're mostly simple, but I wanted to show
what my world is like
maybe not fabulously, but it's so so. 


My world is ordinary, this I know 
and most would be likely to agree 
it's friends, esteem, education and family 
but I have tried to notice 
that what makes it extraordinary. 


The sunlit glow of a grey street
wondering about the stories 
of strangers we meet 
and memories that we all wish to keep.

Comfortable silences 

what it feels like to be kissed 
to be young 
and with people you love 
the simple pleasure 
of smiling on a sunny day 
thinking of the future 
of growing older 
thinking of childhood 
what could, would, should
of been
and still always remembering 
to be in the now.

We all know that 

there are counted days
and counted words
but I suppose what I've learnt 
is not to drown in it all 
but absorb and live,
maybe not be a focus of the world
but to have my own
to make it compelling
to have my own story 
that is worth telling.

Thursday, 29 December 2011

On The Motorway

There were cars stretching 
as far as the eye could see
and then there was you,
there was you and me. 


The road and rain faded
along that motorway 
you help up a hand
which shone amongst the grey.


You began to write 
words, that I couldn't see
then you helped up the paper
it was simple but I was happy. 


Hi with a smiley face 
was all that you had written 
your writing neat 
and suddenly I was smitten.

Quick as I could manage

I got out my pen 
replied with hello 
in the hopes you'd write again. 


Another paper against the window
this one said I like your eyes 
you smiled with a caring gaze
and I felt complimented, though surprised.


I wrote back thank you 
and you nodded your head 
we were both still smiling 
and I knew I'd turned red. 


But all too soon 
the traffic began to move 
we became separated
and I completely lost you.
I have never seen you again 
and I'm most likely not going to 
but for that stretch of mile
we made a good couple,

me and you. 

Sunday, 18 December 2011

A Perfect Moment



It was nothing really 
it wasn't extravagant 
neither grand or large 
just in an evening in at home
music on the CD player
gentle parent's conversation
giving that extra layer
full from tea 
and all it dawned on me
that I was nearly crying
I was so happy. 

Friday, 9 December 2011

Simple Love

As sad as this will make me sound, not to mention pathetic and maybe slightly like Bridget Jones, yesterday at about two in the morning I think? ( I don' tend to sleep till around 4) I was just sat in my room sobbing. 
After I had watched 90210 and Glee.
It wasn't so much the show themselves that made me cry, more so what they show. Couples.
Always couples. People being together and despite problems, having relationships.
It was horrible to progress back to the state of feeling alone and the reasoning behind this that I'm ugly. Alone, ugly and crying at two in the morning. Crank out the chocolate and you have the beginning of a chick flick. Looking back, it was a spectacular pity fest. 

The worse thing is though, is that that's what in my head. It's just kind of pushed down under all the stuff. But I do genuinely feel like that. Dearie me. 


Anyway, I know I said I would try to write less whingy, 'romantic pictures' poems but I thought with this reasoning of last night, I was allowed some self indulgence in this one.


Reading it back, this is probably one of the most honest and open poems I've done. 


It's not so much the fact
I need someone 
to complete me 
I don't really want to 
be part of some romantic story
something that completely 
alters history,
I just want something simple.

A hand to hold
someone to grow old (with) 
he can give me his coat
if I get cold 
not to tell me I'm beautiful
but he thinks I am 
to smile before kissing me
to hold me when I'm sad
or hold me whenever
so tight I think he'll never let go
and I will always know
that he's here 
not just for me
but because he wants to be. 

Tuesday, 6 December 2011

Return


Oneword.com - literally wrote it in about 30 seconds - just trying a different way of writing these things. 




Return to me
I beg you please
wait.




You weren't mine at all 
I wish you were
I wish you could
I wish you would

stay with me
forever more. 

Thursday, 24 November 2011

What Would I Do?





I will walk through the night
I will use anything I might

until I find the one I seek
until they become mine to keep
until the cold becomes warm 
and I feel that I belong.


I will walk through baking sun
looking around for the one 
the one that is meant to be for me
the kind of love 
that is written through history.


I will through the depth of cold
if it means I would find
someone I can grow old, 
with - a someone who is kind.

Though I could walk

and though I could search
perhaps I'm not meant to 
and we'll just find each other
rather than just me,
looking for you. 

Saturday, 19 November 2011

Toothbrush Embrace

Bit of a story as to why the picture is a bit shit. The whole reason I wrote this poem was because of something I saw in my bathroom. So I took a picture on my phone - and despite multiple attempts could not upload it to my laptop. So took a picture of a picture with my webcam. Realising now, could of just used a camera. Oh well, it's done. 
I want with you
a tooth brush embrace
where we look towards one another
entwined,
oblivious to the world
because we're just here
together,
with nothing else in our sight
and side by side with you
everything would feel alright. 

Wednesday, 16 November 2011

The One





How do you know if you've found the one?
or if you found one at all?
Does your heart knock at your chest,
wanting you to notice this person
above the rest?
A smiling with a certain look?
Someone harder to read 
than the most complex of books?


If you see someone you notice 
but never see again
what if that meant to happen
and you've missed your chance?
Or perhaps people like me 
just read too much in to a glance. 


I'm not really looking for the one
but I would love to find 

to know the feeling 
and be content in state of mind. 


Another relationship based poem. Ops. Sorry, just been thinking about this sort of thing a lo t o.o (but not about the relation ship poem posted a while ago) Oh and I'm editing this about 1 in the morning after posting it on my phone earlier. 

Tuesday, 15 November 2011

Just Another Love Poem.

There are plenty of poems 
that are all about love 
to be honest,
there are probably 
far more than enough.

I can't say that I have written

my fair share
since I haven't really
felt the feeling 
I wouldn't know which words
to put where.

You can read all you want to

paint pictures in your mind 
try and imagine 
but really,
and I know this this much to be true
you won't know
what love feels like
until it happens to you.

Wednesday, 2 November 2011

Boxed In (Post 2 of Today)

So this one is kind of for the 1st of January where there was no poem and just an introduction. 
Anyway, I went on a creative writing trip in year 12 and was quite proud of some of the poems I wrote. This is one of them :) No picture because it wouldn't be the same box that was the inspiration behind the piece. 
And yes, admittedly I haven't written it this year but I've posted poems I've written in the past before. It still is a poem, written by me :')

Boxed In

I remember being held
in a nervous,
salty, sweaty hand.
Being opened
a gentle whisper as my
lid was lifted.
Revealing the silver circle
with its diamond hat.

Oh, it was romantic.
How she ran into his arms
How he breathed in her
rose perfume, spinning her round
and round in the moon lit streets.
That's all a distant,
fading
memory now.

No longer do I keep company
with jewellery or a silk lined
suit pocket.
Now I'm in a wardrobe
kept in the dark with the
giant shoe boxes.
The other abandoned fellow brotherin
of gifts to her from the past.

The smell of lavender pot-pourri
surrounds me more than the darkness.
My hinges
once pristine
now battered, creased in to
an ugly grimace.

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Reunion

Not oneword.com title, just had a family party yesterday.

Reunion
Unite
Belonging
Together
Catch up
Smiles
Warmth
Family
always
even apart
same blood
all with heart.

Tuesday, 11 October 2011

To Not Be in Love

To of not been in love
to felt the warmth of the heart
to be connected to another 
two halves of the same part
is to be alone 
and to be smothered 
by naivety 
and a sense of loss 
for something 
never owned. 

Monday, 3 October 2011

Family

Happy Birthday Mum.
(family came up today for a birthday meal, was very nice) 



Forever
Always 
My family 
I know 
Love me, and
Yes. Nothing will change that.

Sunday, 25 September 2011

Rambling What's

So I've been here a week. Wow. I'm struggling with an idea today so I shall just start writing words and hope it's not shit.. Great attitude to have just before starting uni work isn't it?


What is me 
and who am I? 
What makes you 
and who you are?
What makes them
become an us 
and what makes like
turn into love?  
What makes us hate 
feel 
think 
sense 
believe 
have faith
what makes me 
and who am I?

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

What I Would Like



Noses touching 
smile sharing 
always caring 
with you.


Face pressed 
into your chest 
your arms
around my waist 
you smile at me 
I'm the only 
person that you see.



Soft slow kisses 
simple wishes 
long lastings hugs 
being in love.

Sunday, 31 July 2011

Pastry Pleasantness



Voices stroll along in the breeze
polite manners join in
the sun approves 
and decides to glow 
no one here is for a show
simply together
for the sake of doing so.


Tender wrinkled hands
fold over pastry
wedding ring
like part of the skin
apples get comfy on the plate
no fuss
or frustration
if there is a mistake.


It seems with age
we become accustomed
to one another
no pressure
just appreciate the time
the company 
and are able to savour
the flavour
of an apple pie. 

Sunday, 24 July 2011

Seeking Wonder

Find wonder
hope
love


Discover
the world
colour
imagination


Where?


In the stars
the clouds
the streets
in their eyes
you know the one.

Saturday, 2 July 2011

Regrets and Maybes.



Regret bites at the heart 
as I wish that we 
could be together 
and you put your arms
around me
like you do with her.


Maybe we couldn't 
of been anything
at all 
but now I can't help
thinking 
that we would 
of been good.


But it's too late. 


I don't know what I'd
tell you
had I been given 
the chance
maybe nothing at all
so my words here
will have to do
I think
that maybe,
I could of loved you. 

Friday, 1 July 2011

Ending

My leavers ball is today o.o
Nearly time
to close the book
mark the page
for when I want 
a second look



Saying goodbye 
to this time
and embracing,
preparing
to face the next step.



Growing up
older,
certainly
wiser
maybe
maturer,
not so sure. 


I suppose 
we'll dance
our cares away. 

Tuesday, 21 June 2011

The Things I Couldn't Say



My mouth breathed
out the word thank you
tears choking back the rest
but what i wanted to say
right there, just today : 


I love you
You're always there
you do so much 
and know what just to say
you never let anything
stand in my way
I don't know what I'd do 
without you
always by my side,
you can't pick your family
but I sure as hell
love mine.