Arms folded
as if cold
shoulders hunched
in the shape of the old
veins fizzle with worry
brain shrinks
with the fear
of not being liked
heart pounds for approval
eyes down cast on the floor
for anxiety of looking up
and seeing the other pairs
silently talking
the smiles bonding
and I'm stuck
on the other side
with cold veins
and a worrying brain.
Exam results tomorrow which determine whether or not I get in to uni o.o
I feel sick.
No words
just darkness.
No sound
just worry.
I am stuck
drowning.
Worst of all
I am stuck
on my own
trying to get out
of my tortured world.
If you look for worry
problems
stress
you'll find them
if you don't
you won't.
If you look for flaws
in others
the mirror
you'll find them
if you don't
you won't.
If you look for me
or you
love
acceptance
you'll find it
if you don't
you won't.
If you look for half empty
that it will be.
I question my health
I question my self
Always finding a flaw
not so much doubt
but a scream and shout
of anxiety
of stress.
Worry,
Constantly makes itself known
all the time
never a break
always thinking
I've made a mistake
Worry,
Tapping on the shoulder
stamping on the brain
try to stay sane
keep telling myself
try to stay sane.
Here comes the anxiety
here comes the stress
here comes the panic
the worry
and the mess
Then there's the brain
the heart
the stomach
working together
but you feel like torn apart
Light the match
the fuse will burn
just you wait
it might be your turn.
When everything
Overwhelms
Reason and
Restlessness takes over
You begin to fall.
